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Back!

Posted by cathara | 7:31 AM | 0 comments »

So I'll be back, yes. First, I need to have an internet connection. Second, I need to increase my page rank again :D, so, I'm going to run a contest very soon :) Cash is the prize baby! Watch out for it :D

Today I leave you with rants, lol

I wrote this entry few months ago but decided not to post it because it’s too upfront, too not-me in person when I talk. I’m feeling mad angry at the moment so I want to speak out. But I really tried my best to hold back.

This issue was tackled again very recently. I got humiliated somehow and thought why not get bitchy here if I really can’t in person with this particular person and other people who love minding other’s businesses?

Once and for all, I really want to explain my side about this subject because it’s f*cking tiring to repeat my answers especially when people doubt me anyway. I’m sick of this. Next time I’m confronted? I would just direct them to this blog entry.

Nonetheless, I don’t know if this happens to other races with foreigner partners. But lo and behold, here in the Philippines, people got this common mentality when you’re around with a foreigner boyfriend. Which is wrong most of time in my case. But I am talking not just for myself but also for those who’s in my situation too.

So here are some of the misconceptions I’ve observed so far that most Filipino think when you got a foreigner partner;

1. You have lots of money; you have a monthly allowance for your vanity and shopping. You always have the latest gadget in town and you’re not a one-cell phone-woman. In short, you’re a gold-digger.

2. Your boyfriend is twice older than you like 10-30 years. They’re either divorced, with children or never been married.

3. Either one of you is unattractive.

4. You have another boyfriend (most likely a Pinoy who’s okay with your state of affair) other than your foreigner bf.

5. You’re going to marry him at the soonest possible time because it’s your easiest passport abroad. You find a way to leave him once you get overseas and find another richer man. Or if you fall under case #4, you would go back to PH and get back to your Pinoy bf’s arms.

Now here are my answers to that.


1. I love to use my own money. It feels so good to taste the fruit of my labor and savings. And to speak as a jobless person, I have other resourceful ways of finding money. I am not one of the contemporary vanity people and I’m not shopaholic. My only narcissistic side I think is when I joined those social networking sites like facebook and post hundreds of photos of me that I’m not even sure who views. If I’m given the money, it depends why I should accept it. I’d ask if I really need it or if I really want something so bad. But not to a point of abusing my man and hollow out cash from his pocket until he gets flat broke.

2. My current boyfriend is few months younger than me. I know its quiet rampant nowadays that Pinays got older foreigner bfs but I’m not one of them. I’m not swollen with pride though. In fact, when people find out the truth, they ask me why not get an older, richer man. I see in their faces that they’re serious about their proposition of me getting a man in a wheelchair. And if truth be told, I also had an ex who was twice my age and it has no difference even if he’s not a foreigner. But in due course, I realized an important thing. I know if I got one now, he would just be a father figure to me. Now that’s my reason. So of course, those Pinays got their reasons too. Whether they’re up for the money to save them from the shooting pain of poverty or to have a father they never had, that’s their life business. And hey, when it comes to love, age doesn’t matter! Unless you grow backwards, only sensible people know what I mean.

3. That’s bullshit. I don’t believe that I am nor my bf is unattractive. But it is not why I think its bullshit. But because I hate it when people look at pairs (even someone who got non-foreigner partner) like the girl or the guy is a piece of sh*t arming along with a Hollywood star. I am not insecure, but I feel so offended for them and for my own. It’s like they’re saying that before you jump into a relationship, you have to weigh yourselves in a special measuring device to make sure that both of your physical attractiveness is in the same level. No defects or any little disparity. Goes the same way with your mental and emotional aspects. I can’t provoke myself yet to change my native-ness into something that would blend me into his kind. I would have not been called exotic if I did. Yes, that’s my boastfulness speaking. This is my blog and I have all my bragging rights. So now this is what I think, those people who ignorantly think like that--only got an ordinary taste. And before I forget, love is love no matter whom you’re with!

4. That’s the very insulting remark I have ever heard. I know some people who do that but I won’t name names. Let me tell you a story. I had a girlfriend who was shot in the head by her Pinoy bf who’s also my friend in a dorm where I used to stay in college. He found out that she cheated on him and was about to marry a foreigner. He committed suicide a day after. I also know someone who got a Pinoy bf and knows about her affair with a foreigner. It’s obvious that they’re doing it for monkey-money-business. A survey said that more women are actually cheating these days than men. But I’ve been there, been hurt, been cheated, and been guilty of my innocence. I don’t see anything fruitful about taking revenge by trying it. I think it’s pointless to stay in a relationship when one wants their heart shared with others whether they’re serious or just want to play games. Like he/she wants to know if they’re still attractive to others or whatever. I don’t want to lose my bf’s trust I have earned. Those who cheat are those who don’t have self-control, discipline, and only wants to prove that they’re capable of hurting. I always like to think that love should be seen as a religion, to be faithful and truthful. Especially with my kind of relationship. Like God, love is vague that some sort of ritual is needed to make it substantial and real. Well, I guess this piece is not only for me but for all lovers in the world.

5. If this relationship would end up in marriage then good. If both of us believe in marriage then better. Else, what’s the point of continuing? But I am not going to make that a reason to go easily abroad. In fact, at one point in my life, I said I wouldn’t want to live in America. But I was caught in a situation where my only escape is goodbye. But I also want to stay, be real, and face the desire of wanting to be with him hell no one knows until when. I don’t know what’s ahead of us, but I’m sure it could only be right or left. Though, I won’t leave him for a richer man for god’s sake. I am actually laughing now for that thought because I really think that’s funny. If I wanted a rich old man, why didn’t I keep looking in the first place? And still invest in this relationship where I’d only get either revenue or love-nomic failure?


I’m feeling better now. I only want to get my point across to defend myself against nothing. Nothing? Lol. Plus, even if they get my true answers at the very moment I told them, they wouldn’t believe. Else, they cackle and intensely say ‘ooowwwsss’… And they’d ask me to find a foreigner for them or their daughters. Duh?! Even when they know what I say is true, they only see what they want to see. Their belief is only a reflection of their true selves.

I'm not angry anymore, probably just mad crazy, lol.


But I really wish that this Filipino mentality would drop off.

Sexual Urges

Posted by cathara | 7:25 AM | 0 comments »

secretly submitted by Dothmyre271981

To King Goerge, I have very strong sexual urges to have sex with my mom. I do have a g/f and we do have sex on a decent basis. I know there are other women out ther that are built just like my mom but I am not as attracted to them as I have with my mom. I know it is a sin and wrong, but I was wondering what I should do. I would I tell my mom that I have such strong sexual desires for her. My dad is still around and we all live together Should I act on those urges? Can you help me out here

staley201981@gmail.com

Blasphemy

Posted by cathara | 12:08 AM | 1 comments »

Secretly submitted by Festes

My Sin is the SIN of BLASPHEMY against the almighty GOD in heaven.I do everything you can think of to SIN against GOD.I CURSE JESUS CHRIST daily,i commit SACRILEGEIOUSsins every SUNDAY at church,plus much more.I have a blog at http://cursejesuschrist.blogspot.com where i have posted my SINS for the WORLD to see. If you would like to take a peek and see you are very welcome to come and leave your comments good or bad.I read all comments posted.Maybe some of you are into the same SIN as i.If you are feel free to POST some of your BLASPHEME at my BLOG.

Secretly submitted by King George

We know it's a sin, it's illegal. The circumstance we live here lead us to all these stuff. I live in UAE in a single room flat with my mother. She is in her early 40's and I'm in my early 20's. Everything started 2 years back when I happened to see my mom changing her dress, it aroused me a lot. I started to find all the way to see her nude, I started to show off before her and seducing in the possible ways. All my attempts were positive, at last it ended in an illegal and sinful relationship, between me and mom. Now we are enjoying the sex in its maximum though it's illegal and sinful, but without any guilty feelings.

Secretly Submitted by Texas Lover

Ok here is my confession, but it's PRIVATE!!!

I have a boyfriend who I love very much, for 2 years now, and I would say that I am completely & utterly happy with him, we are very intimate still and physically we are great together. But for some reason I love images of naked women (like on this blog!!!), and some (softcore!) porn, but not with men in it, only beautiful women.

I'm pretty sure I'm not gay or bi, and I'm pretty embarrassed by this. I've never told anyone!! This feels weird :)

Secretly submitted by Clandestine M

It's a hard time for me to move on with my life in a crucial way. I was like imprisoned with everything and the worst part is, I was captivated by a man whom I exactly don't know. I just said, "Maybe, it's him for me" but as we went through the COUPLE LIFE, unbelieving trials came by. I recall, my parents begged me not to marry him and raise my baby alone. But I thought doing so would be good for my baby's future so I didn't listen to my friends and family.

After 3 years of being together, I finally managed to informally break-up with him by going abroad. I know I should be happy but I can't coz my 2 kids are still with him. In the midst of my darkest hours here, I met an Englishman. He's a year older than me, a gentleman, and a soccer player. We met because of my soccer player, European friend. He asked me for a date. And we did it for many times including the sexual thing part. He's so funny and sweet. He opens the car's door for me and I really don't want him to do that hehehe. We always go for dinner and movie marathon at his beautiful huge condo.

After weeks, he asked me, "___, WILL YOU MARRY ME? I WANT YOU TO BE MY WIFE AND MOTHER OF MY KIDS"...ooppss, hello? Are you out of your mind? Are you drunk? I'm not your typical woman. You know my past. "I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR PAST. I CARE ABOUT US, OUR FUTURE. I LOVE YOU AND I WANT YOU TO BE IN MY LIFE"... It was really a touching moment. But I didn't say YES. not yet. I'm afraid that I might fall again for a wrong man... But one thing is for sure, I enjoy making love with him than with my husband. I know it's a sin... But is it really a sin if it makes me happy? If it is, I'm really for Sub Rosa Culpa.

About This Blog

Posted by cathara | 12:21 PM | , , , | 4 comments »

Adam & Eve
1. Sub Rosa Culpa means
The Latin phrase sub rosa means "under the rose" and is used in English to denote secrecy or confidentiality.
In Christian symbology the phrase "sub rosa" has a special place in confessions. Pictures of file-leaved roses were often carved on confessionals, indicating that the conversations will maintain secrecy. You will find more interesting meaning of this especially at the last part of this page in Wikipedia

Culpa
simply means fault.


2. When did I think about making this blog?
-It was when I wrote about Mea Culpa, Tui Culpa, Noster Nostri Culpa

3. What is the purpose of this blog?
-To write without restrictions
-To reveal more secrets and sins

So I encourage everyone that if you are secretly sinning and dying to reveal it or just even share it, just
You have a choice of revealing your real identity or not. Just create a unique name. Don't worry about giving your info, I swear I won't tell. :D


I'm willing to give out 100 entrecard credits to the first 5 contributor(who got entrecard of course :D)!!!

P.S. If you don't want your identity revealed, please tell me your entrecard id or blog where I could put ECs on.